Christmas Break!

Hey everyone!
Since last Wednesday I've been on winter break! =D I'm really enjoying it too, I'm hoping to do some baking (which I already have started on!), knitting, getting ready for Christmas, doing my crafts, relaxing, and hanging out with my family and friends!
Also my first semester at Crown went really well, I enjoyed all of my classes and I got A-'s in all of my classes!!! I finished my fall semester of being a senior in high school and my last semester of being a freshman in college!!! This coming semester should be a good one! I have almost all the same doctors and professors with the exception of one and that's will be for my bio class! =D I'm gonna be taking accounting 2, bio 2, Writing and Lit, World Civ, and New Testament Archeology! Well I hope y'all enjoy you're Christmas break! Merry Christmas!! 
~Sandy

The one question I hate

Hey Everyone,
Out of all the questions I've been asked there is only one question that I absolutely hate! That question is "Where are you from?" I hate this question because I have troubles answering this question. Why you ask? How could I have problems with answering such an easy question? Well I have problems because I have three places where I am from. Three homes, in which have made me who I am today. If we are talking about where I was born, well then I am from Mexico. I lived in Mexico for a few months, I don't know how long considering I was adopted as a baby. Once the adoption was finalized my parents brought me home in Minnesota, which I lived the first two years of my life here. Then I moved to Indiana, which I feel that my childhood was spent there. Then I moved back here, and have spent the rest of my time here up to the present. This being said, which one should I make the answer? All three are my home, all three have changed me, all three are where I am from. If I give the long explanation that I just gave sometimes I am pitied because I am adopted. As you know I do not like that pity since I have written about this on my adoption blog. Where on the other hand sometimes a quick answer is necessary, which then means I have to pick. To pick is such a hard thing for me, how do I pick between three wonderful places! This is why I hate this question.....I never have a really good answer unless I tell them the long explanation, which not everyone wants to hear. Well that's all I really have to say. Have a great weekend! Merry Christmas!
~Sandy

Random/Update

Hey Everyone,
Sorry I haven't kept up with this blog, but college has kept me very busy! Plus I had my appendix taken out, so that cut off about a week of my life just from being in the hospital to recovering. I've enjoyed all of my classes I've taken this semester, although I did have to drop pre-cal because I did not have the time I thought I would. =/ As of right now I am almost done with my semester! YAY!! This is why I actually have time to update this blog. I have finished all my assignments in almost all of my classes except for accounting. I have the comprehensive problem to finish. Next week is finals and I'll be happy once they are over, because I am ready for a break! I am tired of writing essays, and doing homework, I want to do fun stuff that I enjoy!!

Anywho enough about me. As some of you may know my boyfriend Josh, was trying to get into Job Corps to help him get an education and to help him go for his dream. He finally got in!!! He left for Job Corps on Tuesday morning. I miss him, but I know it's for the best. He's finally able to go for his dream, which is a good thing. He wants to go into culinary arts, which I think fits him very well. Maybe I can convince him to practice his new skills on my family.... ;) Also he found out from a practice GED test that he could pass the GED test!!! I'm so proud of him! :) I also learned this summer/fall he makes the BEST bacon ever!!!

Well I think that's about all that's happened from last time I posted on here. Hope you have a great Christmas break and Christmas!
~Sandy

Some critical history to NEVER forget

I got this in an email and I thought I'd share it with y'all.
~Sandy

Kitty Werthmann is 85 years old.

This is a SCARY piece of HISTORY. Read & perhaps learn something new from HISTORY and "CHANGE."

America truly is the Greatest Country in the World. By: Kitty Werthmann What I am about to tell you is something you've probably never heard or will ever read in history books. I believe that I am an eyewitness to history. I cannot tell you that Hitler took Austria by tanks and guns; it would distort history. We elected him by a landslide - 98% of the vote.. I've never read that in any American publications. Everyone thinks that Hitler just rolled in with his tanks and took Austria by force. In 1938, Austria was in deep Depression. Nearly one-third of our workforce was unemployed. We had 25% inflation and 25% bank loan interest rates. Farmers and business people were declaring bankruptcy daily. Young people were going from house to house begging for food. Not that they didn't want to work; there simply weren't any jobs. My mother was a Christian woman and believed in helping people in need. Every day we cooked a big kettle of soup and baked bread to feed those poor, hungry people - about 30 daily. The Communist Party and the National Socialist Party were fighting each other.. Blocks and blocks of cities like Vienna , Linz , and Graz were destroyed. The people became desperate and petitioned the government to let them decide what kind of government they wanted. We looked to our neighbor on the north, Germany , where Hitler had been in power since 1933. We had been told that they didn't have unemployment or crime, and they had a high standard of living. Nothing was ever said about persecution of any group -- Jewish or otherwise. We were led to believe that everyone was happy. We wanted the same way of life in Austria .. We were promised that a vote for Hitler would mean the end of unemployment and help for the family. Hitler also said that businesses would be assisted, and farmers would get their farms back. Ninety-eight percent of the population voted to annex Austria to Germany and have Hitler for our ruler. We were overjoyed, and for three days we danced in the streets and had candlelight parades. The new government opened up big field kitchens and everyone was fed. After the election, German officials were appointed, and like a miracle, we suddenly had law and order. Three or four weeks later, everyone was employed. The government made sure that a lot of work was created through the Public Work Service. Hitler decided we should have equal rights for women. Before this, it was a custom that married Austrian women did not work outside the home. An able-bodied husband would be looked down on if he couldn't support his family. Many women in the teaching profession were elated that they could retain the jobs they previously had been required to give up for marriage. Hitler Targets Education - Eliminates Religious Instruction for Children: Our education was nationalized. I attended a very good public school. The population was predominantly Catholic, so we had religion in our schools. The day we elected Hitler (March 13, 1938), I walked into my schoolroom to find the crucifix replaced by Hitler's picture hanging next to a Nazi flag. Our teacher, a very devout woman, stood up and told the class we wouldn't pray or have religion anymore. Instead, we sang "Deutschland, Deutschland, Uber Alles," and had physical education. Sunday became National Youth Day with compulsory attendance. Parents were not pleased about the sudden change in curriculum. They were told that if they did not send us, they would receive a stiff letter of warning the first time. The second time they would be fined the equivalent of $300, and the third time they would be subject to jail. The first two hours consisted of political indoctrination. The rest of the day we had sports. As time went along, we loved it. Oh, we had so much fun and got our sports equipment free. We would go home and gleefully tell our parents about the wonderful time we had. My mother was very unhappy. When the next term started, she took me out of public school and put me in a convent. I told her she couldn't do that and she told me that someday when I grew up, I would be grateful. There was a very good curriculum, but hardly any fun - no sports, and no political indoctrination. I hated it at first but felt I could tolerate it. Every once in a while, on holidays, I went home. I would go back to my old friends and ask what was going on and what they were doing. Their loose lifestyle was very alarming to me. They lived without religion. By that time unwed mothers were glorified for having a baby for Hitler. It seemed strange to me that our society changed so suddenly. As time went along, I realized what a great deed my mother did so that I wasn't exposed to that kind of humanistic philosophy. Equal Rights Hits Home: In 1939, the war started and a food bank was established. All food was rationed and could only be purchased using food stamps. At the same time, a full-employment law was passed which meant if you didn't work, you didn't get a ration card, and if you didn't have a card, you starved to death. Women who stayed home to raise their families didn't have any marketable skills and often had to take jobs more suited for men. Soon after this, the draft was implemented. It was compulsory for young people, male and female, to give one year to the labor corps. During the day, the girls worked on the farms, and at night they returned to their barracks for military training just like the boys. They were trained to be anti-aircraft gunners and participated in the signal corps. After the labor corps, they were not discharged but were used in the front lines. When I go back to Austria to visit my family and friends, most of these women are emotional cripples because they just were not equipped to handle the horrors of combat. Three months before I turned 18, I was severely injured in an air raid attack. I nearly had a leg amputated, so I was spared having to go into the labor corps and into military service. Hitler Restructured the Family Through Daycare: When the mothers had to go out into the work force, the government immediately established child care centers. You could take your children ages 4 weeks to school age and leave them there around-the-clock, 7 days a week, under the total care of the government. The state raised a whole generation of children.. There were no motherly women to take care of the children, just people highly trained in child psychology. By this time, no one talked about equal rights. We knew we had been had. Health Care and Small Business Suffer Under Government Controls: Before Hitler, we had very good medical care. Many American doctors trained at the University of Vienna . After Hitler, health care was socialized, free for everyone. Doctors were salaried by the government. The problem was, since it was free, the people were going to the doctors for everything. When the good doctor arrived at his office at 8 a.m., 40 people were already waiting and, at the same time, the hospitals were full. If you needed elective surgery, you had to wait a year or two for your turn. There was no money for research as it was poured into socialized medicine. Research at the medical schools literally stopped, so the best doctors left Austria and emigrated to other countries. As for healthcare, our tax rates went up to 80% of our income. Newlyweds immediately received a $1,000 loan from the government to establish a household. We had big programs for families. All day care and education were free. High schools were taken over by the government and college tuition was subsidized. Everyone was entitled to free handouts, such as food stamps, clothing, and housing. We had another agency designed to monitor business. My brother-in-law owned a restaurant that had square tables. Government officials told him he had to replace them with round tables because people might bump themselves on the corners. Then they said he had to have additional bathroom facilities. It was just a small dairy business with a snack bar. He couldn't meet all the demands. Soon, he went out of business. If the government owned the large businesses and not many small ones existed, it could be in control. We had consumer protection. We were told how to shop and what to buy. Free enterprise was essentially abolished. We had a planning agency specially designed for farmers. The agents would go to the farms, count the live-stock, then tell the farmers what to produce, and how to produce it. "Mercy Killing" Redefined: In 1944, I was a student teacher in a small village in the Alps . The villagers were surrounded by mountain passes which, in the winter, were closed off with snow, causing people to be isolated. So people intermarried and offspring were sometimes retarded. When I arrived, I was told there were 15 mentally retarded adults, but they were all useful and did good manual work. I knew one, named Vincent, very well. He was a janitor of the school. One day I looked out the window and saw Vincent and others getting into a van. I asked my superior where they were going. She said to an institution where the State Health Department would teach them a trade, and to read and write. The families were required to sign papers with a little clause that they could not visit for 6 months. They were told visits would interfere with the program and might cause homesickness. As time passed, letters started to dribble back saying these people died a natural, merciful death. The villagers were not fooled. We suspected what was happening. Those people left in excellent physical health and all died within 6 months. We called this euthanasia. The Final Steps - Gun Laws: Next came gun registration.. People were getting injured by guns. Hitler said that the real way to catch criminals (we still had a few) was by matching serial numbers on guns. Most citizens were law abiding and dutifully marched to the police station to register their firearms. Not long after-wards, the police said that it was best for everyone to turn in their guns. The authorities already knew who had them, so it was futile not to comply voluntarily. No more freedom of speech. Anyone who said something against the government was taken away. We knew many people who were arrested, not only Jews, but also priests and ministers who spoke up. Totalitarianism didn't come quickly, it took 5 years from 1938 until 1943, to realize full dictatorship in Austria . Had it happened overnight, my countrymen would have fought to the last breath. Instead, we had creeping gradualism Now, our only weapons were broom handles. The whole idea sounds almost unbelievable that the state, little by little eroded our freedom. After World War II, Russian troops occupied Austria . Women were raped, preteen to elderly. The press never wrote about this either. When the Soviets left in 1955, they took everything that they could, dismantling whole factories in the process. They sawed down whole orchards of fruit, and what they couldn't destroy, they burned. We called it The Burned Earth. Most of the population barricaded themselves in their houses. Women hid in their cellars for 6 weeks as the troops mobilized. Those who couldn't, paid the price. There is a monument in Vienna today, dedicated to those women who were massacred by the Russians. This is an eye witness account. "It's true..those of us who sailed past the Statue of Liberty came to a country of unbelievable freedom and opportunity. America Truly is the Greatest Country in the World. Don't Let Freedom Slip Away "After America , There is No Place to Go" Please forward this message to other voters who may not have it. "After America, There is No Place to Go"  The author of this article lives in South Dakota and is very active in attempting to maintain our freedom. I encourage everybody to read this article and pass it along. I see so many parallels in this country-are we going to sit by and watch it happen?? Spread the word; also contact your congressional reps; vote them out if they don’t do what they should. If you don’t want to be bothered, than you’re part of the problem! Google Kitty Werthmann and you will see more articles and videos on this.

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Henna and college life!

Hey everyone!!!
Sorry I haven't been able to keep up with this blog that well. I've been extremely busy with college, from doing homeworking, actually going to class, going to the study lab etc. Anyway, yesterday was Missions Fest at Crown (which is really AWESOME!!!!) and after the seminars they had Globe Trekking!!

I did Globe Trekking, first stop was Papua New Guinea. In Papua New Guinea we tried to translate John 3:16, and while we were trying to do that this guy comes in saying a villager tried to put a curse on him. Then after we prayed for the guy, the villager comes in having a fit that his curse did not work. The missionary than starts to talk to him explain why it did not work, which by this time we had to leave. Next stop was Thailand....Thailand, now that was a very interesting one. Thailand was to open our eyes to see how huge a problem prostitution is there. They also told us a testimony of a girl who was saved from prostitution by Rehab Ministries. It was quite sad, and just broke your heart to hear the testimony. From there we went to South America, where they talked about how families are trying to make money by working in the dumps collecting plastic. After South America we went to Morocco to the market, I "died" there from a terrorist attack. Lastly from there we went to a Hospital in Georgia, where there they do not have running water, electricity, and enough supplies for a hospital. It made you realize how great your life is, how much you have compared to the people there.

After Globe Trekking I got henna done on my hand/arm. Here's a picture of it.

 Well that's really all I have to say. Nothing really new here other than all the homework I've been doing for my college classes. May the odds be in your favor!
~Sandy

We Miss You

We miss you,

You did so much for us,

All of the students miss you,

How you would always ask how we were,

and how things were going for us,

Always smiling at us, loving us and caring about us.

Your cooking was amazing,

You were always ready to cook for us if we were not going home,

or for what ever reason.

I count myself lucky to have known you.

For you are gone now,

and now none of the freshman here

will ever get to know you like I did.

You were such a great example of a Godly woman. 

You showed it so well in all the love you gave to us.

Every time I came here with my mom you always

asked me how I was and how everything was going for me.

You showed me so much love and care. 

You even tried to teach me how to cook, 

and helped me use my Spanish.

You did so much for this College. 

For the students who won't get to meet you,

they will miss you even though they never met you.

Because they will hear all of the students who have met you,

tell them how wonderful you were, and how we miss you.

You loved all of the students, and for that we thank you! 

Even though we miss you,

We are yet happy for you.

For you are not suffering any more,

and you are with God now.

9/11

Hey everyone,
I'm sure you all remember 9/11 or at least know about it. I was going to put this on here on 9/11 but I've been really busy with all my college homework. I can not believe that 9/11 happened 10 years ago!! It doesn't seem like that much time has gone by.
I wrote this I guess you could call it a poem about it. I hope you enjoy it! Also thanks to everyone who serves so that we can keep our freedom!!

9/11
By Sandy Cash

One morning her dad calls home,
something he does not usually do.
Her mom tells her to turn on the TV,
another thing that is not usual.
She goes to turn on the TV,
it turns on.....
She sees a huge building on fire.
Why it is on fire she does not know.
Until suddenly she sees a plane,
fly right into the neighboring building.

She is sucked into that world
and watches those buildings;
They are on fire
and all of a sudden they are collapsing!

Suddenly she is brought back into her world,
by her sister asking mom if daddy can fix it.
Hearing her mom crying, while telling her no.

Her world was so innocent until she saw that.
She knew there were bad people,
but they were not that bad.

The room is filled with sadness
Why someone would do that is beyond her.
She is horrified for all the people in the building,
and for their families.

She wishes there was a way to fix it all,
but she knows there isn't.
She wishes there was a super hero to help,
knowing they are only in movies and TV.

She is confused why would people do that?
Her mom tried to explain why people can hate that much,
but it makes no sense.
We never did anything to them,
so why would they do that??

Her life was so simple,
she was naive about the world.
Yet she is trying to understand what even adults do not completely understand.

The Huger Games!!!

Hey everyone,
I've been meaning to put this video up. Here is the first peek at The Huger Games!!! I can't wait until March 2012!!! I'm totally excited for it and I hope they don't ruin it because I LOVE THE BOOKS!!!! Anywho enjoy!!!

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~Sandy

Changes

Hey Everyone,
I hope you are having a good summer. Sorry I haven't post on here for a while. I've been meaning to, but then I get busy or I do something else. Over the last couple of months a log of changes have gone on some for the better and some not. Like some of my friends graduated this year and are off to college!! Great job ya guys!!! I'm so proud of y'all and I know y'all will do great in college!! Also I've found some of my old friend that I've missed a lot!! Plus this school year is my senior year, which it doesn't seem like I've been in high school that long. I'm still doing PSEO in fact this year I'm full time PSEO!!! I'm taking pre-cal at northwestern, Music Theory1, US History, Account 1, and Comp, with Crown!! It's going to be so different actually going to school here at Crown. Then there's the pick a college to go to, seeing about grants and scholarships. *sigh* I'll be busy this year!!
Oh and my church is getting a new pastor and I youth pastor so that's another change th at we're all going to make.
There are changes I wish didn't happy like insight throwing what they had going for them out the window. Insight is now part of K12, which so far I'm not impressed with. They took out all the fun electives we had and now we have the typical classes. I really wanted to take criminalogy this year since last year I heard about how good it was and I'm gonna need to take half a credit of social studies, but sadly now I can't. Plus now instead of have two semesters we will have quarters. I don't like this because 3 classes just seems too light of a school load. Also I know students will wait until the very end of the quarter just to do their work because 3 classes will seem to easy so they can slack off. They'll be stressed out trying to cram all that homework in, which in turn stresses out teachers because they're grading as fast as they can to get the student's grades in. Plus once the students fail or get horrible grades they usually seem to leave because they came to insight so they wouldn't have as much stress. Another thing why make us take finals 4 times when we can do it in 2?! I mean I'm pretty sure I'm like everyone else in the fact of I don't really like finals so why go through it more?? Also they told us that they were thinking that quarters would be nice because then it gives us the students a variety of classes. Well it's kinda hard to give us a variety of classes if we only have the typical stuff now isn't it? I won't go on because I'm sure you don't want to hear it. With all these changes happening at insight I'm glad this will be my last year!! They had so much going for them and then they just threw it all away. ='( The only things I'll do with insight will probably be book club and prom committee. Anyway enough about all these changes I got to go to class!! Hope things are going well for y'all!! Bye!!!
~Sandy

Letter to my hurting friends

I know you are hurting and asking "why?"
And sometimes blaming yourself for "losing" your special someone
But let me tell you something

You are beautiful, smart, cool, fun and so much more!!
If the special someone could not see that it is their lost not yours!
You deserve the best!!!
Someone who will always love you for who you are
Someone who will always be there for you
Who sees how special you really are
And yet is your friend

I know right now you can't think of loving anyone else
Or letting someone in that close
Or feeling that there is someone special out there for you
who could love you

Let me tell you God has an amazing plan just for you!
Trust him for he cares deeply about you and loves you!

You say you don't understand this pain,
You don't know how much it hurts
Or how much I miss him/her!!
Of course I don't know exactly how you feel,
But I do know pain, missing, hurting from a love one and losing a loved one.

The thing is you just have to have faith in God
And get through this time with God's help
And with friend's help

If you need me for anything don't hesitate to ask me!!
I want to help because I love you and you are special to me!!

Bring Me Hope 5K

Hey everyone!!
I know I'm enjoying summer!! (Okay so it's still not really summer until after tomorrow but I have been done with all my homework for a few weeks now, so I call it summer. XD) Anywho I know in summer sometimes it seems like there's nothing to do and it can get a bit boring, so I thought I'd let ya know about a really cool event!!! Bring Me Hope 5k is a 5k that all the money we (my church) earns goes to families who want to adopt but could use some financial help!! This is a great way to do something this summer that will help other people!!Anyway I need to go but the details are in the picture/flyer down below!!! Bye and have a great summer!!! Congrats to those who graduated this year!!
~Sandy

A Different Valedictorian Speech

Hey everyone,
So I came cross this different Valedictorian speech. I think she got her wish....they'll never forget this Valedictorian speech. =D What do you think of her Valedictorian speech?? Bye for now I am hopping once school is over to be able to keep up with my blogs more!!
~Sandy

Economics cartoons

Hey everyone!
So yesterday I had to make cartoons for economics class. Here they are, enjoy them! Also feel free to let me know what you think about them!
~Sandy


Structural unemployment


Poverty


Income inequality

Not really sure what to title this post...

Hey everyone,
Lots of things have been happening for me over these past few weeks. Some things are good and others are not so great, but then that's life right? Well then I got thinking about all my friends who I love very much. I want them to know they can call me, or get a hold of me for what ever reason no matter what! I also want them to know I love all of then very much, you guys mean the world to me! If you ever have to vent or have a problem let me help!! I want to help and I want to be there for you! Anyway, I wrote this poem for all my friends. I hope you enjoy it!
~Sandy

Friends
By Sandy Cash

I have a huge family!
No I do not mean actually related to.
What I mean is my friends!
I love them all like family.
In fact they are my family.
God gave me a wonderful family,
but he also gave me wonderful friends that are like family!

Just like a family, we are all close in some way.
We share our problems and help each other.
Sure at times we fight...just like a real family does.
After the fight we hug and say we're sorry.
We learn from our fights.
When you hurt I hurt and want to make everything feel better.
I love you, and I will always be there for you!
You mean the world to me!!
I want you to come to me with your problems!
Really I want you to, that way you are not dealing with them all by yourself...
If we deal with the problems together they are much easier.

I know I might not say it enough, but I love you!!
You mean the world to me!!
I will always be here for you!!!

Please!!

Please!! Don't lose your dreams!!
Don't believe those lies that you are worthless, you are nothing etc...!!
Keep those dreams!!
I know life seems so hard and that those dreams will never come true.
But don't you see?
That's what they want you to see!!
You have to keep fighting!!
Just because they have pushed you down,
does not mean they win.
The only time they win is when you let them!
Get back up!
They want you to stay down.
You are wonderful!!
God made you!!
Nothing he makes is ugly, stupid, trash, or an idiot etc...
He loves you!! He sent is only son to die just for YOU!!
Now that is love!!
I know life keeps pushing you down and hurting you,
but with God all things are possible!!
He has a wonderful future all planned out for you!!
Don't give up hope!! He loves you even when you don't feel like anyone loves you!!
Darling don't give up!
Even when the world seems to turn it's back on you,
remember God and I are here for you!!
God can do anything!! He is all powerful!!
I am only here for you so you can cry on my shoulder,
talk to me when you need to vent,
give you a hug when you need a good hug.
I love you and it hurts me when I see you there hurting...
It hurts me when you slowly lose hope,
please try to keep up the hope!
I know it is hard, believe me everyone has their hard times...
But you must keep up your hope!
Never lose hope otherwise you have lost everything.
Remember God is in control no matter what so never lose your hope!!
I love you, and I hope you don't give up.

Silly Poem by me at midnight...

Hey Y'all
So last night I stayed up really LATE last night (yes past midnight and yes I did wake up early today) for good ol' homework...My favorite thing to do. Anywho I was working on Marine Science (one of my favorite classes!!) and for an assignment I had to write a poem and well this is what I came up with!

Down in Jamaica man
There are a lot of fish.
Some of them herbivores.
Some of them omnivores.
And some even piscivores.
Plenty of color man
down under there.
It's like a little city man
down under there.
If you ever get a chance man,
go snorkeling down in Jamaica man!

So when I was beginning to write this I was thinking of an fish or some marine animal talking in a Jamaican accent and wearing one of those hats with the dreadlocks on it. Why you may ask, I really don't know just that's what I pictured and that's how I wrote it. Anywho since I thought it would be cool to like try to get a fish say it in a Jamaican accent, I looked online to see if I could do it. Well I didn't quite get what I wanted but here's what I used. =) Hope you enjoy it!
~Sandy

Why must we grow up so fast?

Why must we grow up so fast?
Why it seems just yesterday I was a care free little child.
Just playing with my friends, not having a worry.
Not really even know what it is to worry.
Only thing that really kept me from being happy was being afraid.
I dreamed that when I grew up, I'd be with all my besties.
We'd all go to the same high school and would all meet our "prince charming."
We'd go to colleges close by so we could keep up with each other.
Then we'd all get married to our prince charming and we'd be in each others' weddings.
We'd have families and our kids would become besties and it would start all over again.

Now I am older, and I wish for those days again.
To be so carefree would be wonderful right now.
Not having to worry about this and that.
Not having to try to figure out what you are doing for the rest of your life.
Wishing that it was easy to meet your "prince charming."

Though now I watch as my sister and younger friends just want to grow up because they think being old is so cool and you can do so much more.
They are right in you can do so much more, but with that comes a lot of responsibility.
You have to make so many hard decisions, that make you wonder did I pick the right one?
You watch your friends try to find their prince charming and watch them get hurt.
Then you also find that one, but at times it seems like it's never going to happen while you watch your friends with their boyfriends and girlfriends.

Then the next thing you know you only have one year left of high school.
You are thinking of moving out of the house.
Going to college and picking a major to go for.
After all this will be our job once you get out of college.
And you wonder where as the time gone?
Why must we all grow up so fast??
You ponder the question and then start to see how naive you were.
You are happy for those days but you are also looking forward to your future.

Invisible

Invisible, why am I so invisible?
I am a person too and yet I walk alone,
No one sees me.
No one sees my pain.
I can cry, but no one sees me crying.
Because they don't see me,
they don't come to comfort me.
I might get a "Hi" from people,
but no one tries to really get to know me.
Does my scares have to be bigger for people to see them?
How I hurt and want someone to help me!!
But yet no one even dares to talk to me to get to know me.
I want someone who can tell right away if I really mean "I'm okay."
I want someone who will actually care and help me through all the pain.
Where are you?! Or are you even there?! Is there no one to help?!
And yet here I stay crying, but no one notices until it is too late.

Newsboys "Save Your Life" - Free Download

Hey everyone, so this was on fb and I thought I'd share it with y'all!
~Sandy

Friends...maybe??

You say I am one of your closest friends
and one of your only friends.
I tell you that you are one of my closest friends too.
No, wait you are more than that,
you are my sister!
Whom I love and care about deeply.

We've had our differences,
but this time it seems different.
You are mad at me.
I tell you I am very sorry
and that I did not mean to hurt you!
You say you forgive me.
I believe you, but then....

The next thing I know
you seem to be ignoring me!
All I ask is why?
I thought you said you forgave me!!
I thought you valued our friendship more than this!
I hope this does not mean our friendship is coming to a end.
After all you are my sister...
So now I wait to find out if this means an end to our friendship or
if you still want to be my friend...

Why Must I Feel This Way?

Hey everyone,
So this is a poem I wrote for a friend...my friend is hurting and I can understand her pain. In fact it reminded me some of the pain I've had to go through...any case I began to write this poem. I hope you guys like it!
~Sandy

Why Must I Feel This Way?
By Sandra Cash

Why must I feel this way?!
I hurt in so many places!!
Yet as soon as I feel like I have stopped hurting...
The pain just comes back even harder than the first time.
I want to yell at you God!
Ask why you allow this?!
How could you?!
Can't you see how much I am hurting?!
You say I'm your daughter and yet you allow this!!

Then I remember, that God is hurting when his children are hurting.
Since I am one of his children he hurts when I am hurting.
He does love me, but sin is in this world.
Because of the sin, we hurt...oh how this world can hurt people.
But God, my father, he will heal me.
He can also use my pain to help others who are in pain.
He can make the ugliest problem something beautiful.
Now I can slowly begin to understand, it is this broken world that causes this pain.
Thankfully God is hear to heal this pain.
Thank you God for healing this pain and loving me.
Thank you!

ENG115 Video Unit 6!!

Hey everyone!!
Andrea made this super cool video for Unit 6 of Folklore, Myths and Legends! Enjoy!! (AWESOME Job Andrea!!)


~Sandy

BIG Announcement!!

Hey everyone!
I started yet another blog today....I'm hoping to be able to keep both of my blogs running....but we'll see how well I can run 2 blogs. The other blog is http://adopteestalk.blogspot.com/. Now I created this blog because last night while talking to Josh, we realized that adoptees really need to be able to connect with other adoptees! We've gone through some things, that only adoptees understand, so I thought I'd start a blog about it! I just hope it actually helps! If you are interested in the blog go visit it!! If you want to write an article because you want to talk about something that I missed as an adoptee feel free to comment down below and I'll get back to ya! Anywho....I need to go, so ttyl!
~Sandy

Shirt I made!

Hey everyone!
I made this shirt a while ago (SOOO much fun to sew!!), but I just now took pictures of it! Enjoy! :) I'm hoping to be able to make my own prom dress!! We'll see how that goes! =) Bye!
~Sandy

Cool forensic video!!

Hey All!!
So for forensic science I had to watch this video. It's about Dr. Hawley Harvey Crippen who in 1910 was found guilty in England of murdering his wife, Cora. Crippen. Crippen was executed by hanging for the crime. In 1910, Crippen's wife disappeared suddenly. Crippen told family friends that she had gone to the U.S. to visit and had become sick and died. After this Crippen's secretary moved into his home, this caused a lot of gossip. Friends of Cora asked the police to look into the matter, but after they began asking questions about the matter, Crippen and his new love fled from London. The police searched the Crippen home and found body parts in the cellar of Crippen’s home. The police report stated the victim had been poisoned and then hacked up into pieces. However, modern day forensic scientists were curious about the case and this is what they found out! =) It's super interesting just make sure you have an hour to waste before you start the video! I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. Bye! Oh if you want to read more on the Crippen case you can here. Also if the video does not play you can watch it here.
~Sandy

Executed in Error, Secrets of the Dead, PBS Video
- Watch more Videos at Vodpod.

ENG115 Video Unit 4 and 5!!

Hey All!!
So remember me telling you how ENG115 (Folklore, Myths, and Legends) is awesome?! Well here's another video that gives you a brief description of what unit 4 and 5 are all about! Enjoy!

~Sandy

2 Year Anniversary!

Hey everyone!
So on the 12th was Josh and mine second year anniversary. =D (I can't believe it's been that long, but on the other hand I can. XD) We did not celebrate our anniversary until today! Today we went to Mystic Lake Casino for dinner! =D I also got to meet his twin sisters, who are awesome! Anywho here's a few pictures of us.(^^ that pic is not as good as the one below...except that Josh is about to blink....oh well!)

Here's the teddy bear Josh gave me. =D

And here is the ring Josh made me!(it's made out of a flat piece of copper!! I have no idea how he did it!!! I've got one talented boyfriend!!) =D

So that is how we celebrated our second year anniversary and valentine's day. (I've got the best boyfriend ever!! Okay so that's only my opinion but hey it's my opinion that counts right?! ;) ) =D ttyl!
~Sandy

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

Hey everyone!

^_^ I hope you guys have a great Valentine's day!! Luv y'all!! (Isn't that heart thing just totally cute and funny!!!) Also here's a video for y'all!! =D Sorry if you're not in the video but I didn't have pics of everyone =(
~Sandy

To English Teachers!!

Hey everyone!
I have to say I have just found a new respect for English teachers!! =) I can not image all the grading they do!! And dealing with us (I'm guilty of this too) using "I" or calling the reader "you" etc... I have no idea how they do it!! I am now understanding why my old English teacher can get a bit depressed with grading. It is truly a hard thing to do! I have to say to you English teachers thank you for putting up with us your students and helping us learn how to write. =) You guys are awesome and deserve to be thanked! (So do all you other teachers!!)
~Sandy

Dave Barnes - God Gave Me You in American Sign Language

This is an Awesome song!! Enjoy it!!

~Sandy

Folklore, Myths and Legends!!

Hey everyone!!
So my wonderful used to be teacher Andrea (Who is a awesome teacher!!!) made this wickedly awesome video!!



Now isn't that awesome?! Don't you want to join that class?? I know I loved it!! Now what insight should do is make a second sem for it!! I'd totally do it if they made a second sem!!!
~Sandy

Shame on you states!

Hey everyone,
So I saw this news story on yahoo here's the link. As you might remember I am completely against the new Arizona immigration law. If you want my take on it please go to the following post. When I first read it was outraged that these states are thinking about it. When it is clearly wrong no matter how you look at it. It also made me think back in history when we had the Jim Crow laws; which then made me think of this quote "History always repeats it's self." If this is true than does this mean that it's going to take another civil war to finally realize this law is not right! Or will we be able to realize this before another civil war? What is your take on this new law?
~Sandy

Why must it be like this?

Why do you hate me so?
I've never done anything to you.
The only thing I have done to you is give you your space
and respect that everyone deserves.
And yet you look at me with disgust,
because of my background.
You make jokes about my skin color and my culture.
Might I remind you that you get tan and dark
when you have been out in the sun.

We are all equal and have the same rights here.
And yet you make laws against me and belittle me.
I am a lot like you except for my heritage, and skin.
Isn't this American where everyone has the same rights?
Or are we going back to when we had the Jim Crow laws?
Didn't you learn about the injustice from those laws?
And yet here we are about to do the same thing,
but to a different heritage.
Do we really need to go through another civil war?
Or anything like that?

I will have you know that I will fight against these laws
until they are taken down.
For these laws are against me and are not right what so ever!
I want my kids and other kids to be able to grow up without this
racism against them.
I will do the best I can to give these kids this dream.
For no kid or person should have to go through this.
This is my dream. just like Martin Luther King Jr. had a dream.

What I did with my 3 day weekend

Hey everyone,
How was you're 3 day weekend? I hope it was good! What did you do with it? This is what I did with my 3 day weekend...well besides reading!

~Sandy

Pieces of Me

Why are you pushing me away?
We were so close you and I...
We did everything together...
We had fun together...
We learned so much from each other.
You taught me how to do so may things,
Like how to be a great friend and how to be more out going
You where like my safety blanket when I was little;
You where there for me when I was hurting and when I did not feel like I fit in.

Yet now here we are,
You are pushing me away...
Can't you see how much this is hurting me?!
Why can't we still be as close as we used to be?!
Why now after all that we have been through?!
I don't want you to leave me!
You have been apart of my life for so long how can you leave me now?!

Now I sit here lost, confused and hurt.
Just wishing this was a horrible dream,
and yet knowing it is not...
I am here just wishing I did not get as close to you,
because than this would not hurt as much.
But if I did not let you get as close who knows what would have happened.
I believe I finally understand the quote:
"'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."
For if I have never known you I probably would not have been who I am today.

I will pick myself up and put myself back together.
For there shall be more people who I grow close to and love.
And they will be apart of my life just like you.
I will always be grateful for the friendship we once had,
and I will always remember the wonderful memories we had.

My Puppy!

Hey everyone,
So I was going to share these pics of my puppy after having taken a bath a while ago, but since I've been somewhat busy I haven't. So here they are! Though I'm thinking I'm going to need to give my puppy another bath soon...

She's soo cute with that baby towel on her! Oh by the way everyone that black thing on her snout is her gentle leader. It helps me keep her in the bathtub even though she hates getting baths.
~Sandy

ETERNAL HOPE FOR HAITI

Hey everyone,
So I got this email.
"ETERNAL HOPE FOR HAITI

Franklin Graham will be presenting the Good News of Jesus Christ at the Festival of Hope in Haiti on Sunday, nearly one year after Samaritan's Purse began providing aid to victims of the devastating earthquake that struck the country. The evangelistic event will be streamed live on the Samaritan's Purse website beginning at 1:30 p.m. Eastern time. READ MORE & WATCH OUR LATEST VIDEO." And then it talks about how to spread the word around. It looks very interesting and I'd love to wait it if I remember. I just though I'd let you guys know!
~Sandy

A Father's Concern

She comes running to you and says "I've found him!! I have found my prince!!! He's amazing, sweet and he loves me!!!!" You ask her all about him, and she gladly tells all.

You watch her get close to him and are happy that they are happy. But you also are worried he will brake her heart after all this is her first love.

Then comes the day when she runs to you saying "It's over! It's over and I never saw it coming!" You try your best to comfort her . Telling her that it is his lost, not hers. But deep down inside you know the words you say to her she won't realize that they are true until later. All you want to do is to erase the pain you see in her. You also want to yell at him who caused her the pain asking how could you do this to her?! But you know this won't help her.

You don't know how to help her so you just sit there by her side and are there for her as best as you can be. Because it hurts you to see her hurting like this and you know you can't do a thing about it. You pray late at night asking for healing for her. She tells you she can't and won't be able to love another person, but you know that's not true.

You hope the next time she comes running to you to tell you all about him. That this is the one and the one to stay.

My amazing friend Vi

Hey everyone,
One of my amazing friends Vi has wrote what I had wish to write for a few of my friends, but failed at it. I hope for those of my friends who are hurting find these words comforting. Sorry I couldn't put it like this. Here's the link to the poem. If that doesn't work go "Links you should visit" click on the Vi's Blog, and it will be the first post. If you for some reason can not find it, the poem will be down below. But please visit her blog for more poems and stories from her. She is a wonderful writer! love ya
~Sandy

post trying to keep posting.

By Violet Jensen

Its a shame you can’t see
The difference between
Two friends and the one thing they share
The love of their lives
And one has gone

I wish you could see
How it has hurt him
Love of me life
You would do just the same
His love has left him
Without any reason why
He has a right to know
I just wish would see
That the reason he needs to know
He though it was
Love

You argue with me
“He needs to let go”
“But he needs to know”
He thought it was love
Had his heart torn apart
Can you just be there
For the sake that your friends

I wish you could see
How it has hurt him
Love of me life
You would do just the same
His love has left him
Without any reason why
He has a right to know
I just wish would see
That the reason he needs to know
He thought it was
Love

He has seen what she is
He knows what she’s done
Now he needs our help
He needs us as friends
Just to be there for him
Tell him all will be well
And he’s not all alone

I wish you could see
How it has hurt him
Love of me life
You would do just the same
His love has left him
Without any reason why
He has a right to know
I just wish would see
That the reason he needs to know
He thought it was
Love

Just open you eyes
Look at what love can do
It shuts off a person’s mind
Just listen to me
‘Cuz you really should see
Beyond just the visible pain
The heart ache inside
My love you will see
I’ll help you to see

I wish you could see
How it has hurt him
Love of me life
You would do just the same
His love has left him
Without any reason why
He has a right to know
I just wish would see
That the reason he needs to know
He thought it was
Love

Some day he’ll find love